Before sleeping..

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This morning

I was waiting for the subway in Milan
 I feel so guilty

 I've been thinking about it all day

 I saw him before

 A guy of 19 maybe

 I've done nothing to stop him

 I must did something

 I should have done something

 I've done
 Nothing..

I saw him.

He was there...few metres in front of me.

He took off his shoes

left them on the floor

He was probably drunk, had taken drugs or something.

He went to the final edge
Beyond the yellow line

sat down on the floor, with his leg dangling.

His head facing down
His hands between the legs

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 I will never forget

 never

 I was shaking

Subway arrived

 I was paralyzed

 and scared

I thought that..
I was sure that he would get up, seeing subway coming

but he didn't

For sure subway would have broken his legs..

Subway came

10 seconds

I screamed pointing at him
doing nothing

paralyzed again

in a second, two men screaming, took him from his shoulder, dragged him away from the edge..

Could die
in front of me
for my fault

he didn't move

he lay on the cold floor of the subways station at 8 a.m.

Everyday, don't know why, my mind plays a different old song, in a unexpected moment of my day.
The song that I heard today is a beautiful song, that reminded me of my past, I didn't check out what was the real meaning of the lyrics of that actually..I think that the video is really cute and full of meaning.

My night perfect ritual in bed with the pc on my knees, watching a film, with leche with milk and my Dalai Lama book nearby.. Perfect end of the day..