Good intentions 2013

None

Anxiety is enclosing me.. slowly rises in my head.
Something is still choking me

I can't understand what

It's holding my mind and never let it go.

It commands my thoughts

Snow lights

Sometimes, it's better to listen, what other people trying to say, maybe only in this way, we can learn something from that and keep it in us, in our life experience..
'cause I'm sure that,  this is a good way for our (and our mind) well-being.

I must learn by my mistakes..

Can't wait to go to bed and read my favorite book, but my daddy is still watching Star Wars and it literally stole my sleep.

My brother's video.. Byron Dean

Tonight this men give me an inspiration, he's my idol.
In my darkest moment I think of him..

Jimmy..

Finish!!!!!!I'm proud of myself for this video!!!But...not completely..I could do better :( ...so tired...g-night world!

Was thinking that writing my posts in English, would help me to learn it better, but, maybe I'm wrong everything, so.. I apologize to everyone that read my blog :(

I'm just here, lying on the couch with a cup of very hot milk..mmh... I'm here from..12/13 p.m.?! Now it's 00:47 a.m.

-It's all day that I work on my project-
-When my mind is so determined to do something, there is nothing that I can do, so I decide to follow my thoughts, therefore comes the end of the day and  I realize that, as my mum would say, "I've done anything useful for my life".

-The fact is, that I feel happier in these days
-Doing something that I love to do, that I would do every day

Highness

Mum, can you hear me?Can you hear me, mum?
Hey you took my ten box and didn't get your glasses fixed
-I took it for eat, forgive me?

Trying to convince my mum that I don't need any type of medical stuff (haha??!) for insomnia/nausea/anxiety post-day before my exam.
Tomorrow will be a nice day- know it!!!

Oook let's restart to study.... :( youtube videos makes me lose a lot of time :/

I'm trying to studying right now, but it's so hard.
I've got an exam tomorrow, it's called psychobiology of behavioral disorders.

My mind refuses to work.

Just..don't know..depressed..

Celebrate ! Celebrate the magic !
Celebrate ! Celebrate the magic !
Magic! Magic! Magic everywhere !

Let's step inside a storybook .
You'll be amazed this time you look ,
to all the laughters and magic all around you 
Some pixie dust falled from a star,
that touches you and here you are.
Go wish a rainbow over your dreams.
this world of wonders 
of place like no others on earth

CHORUS : (x2)
Magic Everywhere !
more than you imagine,
celebrate the magic,
before your eyes !
In a world of laugh,
We all come together
never ends forever
for all our eyes.

Celebrating 20 years of joy and laughters,
memories of you'll keep for ever
Celebrate the magic on your way .


Magic everywhere ! everywhere !


Celebrating 20 years of joy and laughters
memories of you'll keep for ever


Disneyland's the place your eyes are ...
we ...
Magic Everywhere !
Celebrate ! celebrate ! celebrate

It's not true

Should i decide it's true
that you would leave if given half the chance to go and
i'd be left here on my own
to find myself in bed
wishing everything that changed would be the same

the room still looks like you
it's a mess and all the pictures on the shelf are
dusted off by someone else
to keep me company
i haven't told her that your thought still lingers on

everyday's another chance to bury my regret
everyday's another chance to make it but i can't
but i can't

i saw you on my phone
on a contact list that isn't up to date
would have changed it with more time
that i require to
rid my mind of all the freckles on your face

and reconcile to what?
the ring i bought you is buried deep within the ground
behind the swing where we first met
and memory only serves
to remind of all the bruises you forgave

should i decide it's true
that you'd return if given half the chance to come....

but it's not true

Lyrics by: William Fitzsimmons

I don't know where I'm at

me ne sto indietro 
e sono stanco di aspettare 
aspetto qui al confine, 
sperando di trovare quello che ho inseguito 

vorrei scagliarmi contro il cielo 
ma sono bloccato qui sulla terra 
quindi perché dovrei provare? 
So che sto per cadere giù 
Pensavo di poter volare, 
quindi perché sono annegato? 
Non saprò mai perché 
è crollato tutto giù, giù, giù... 

non sono ancora pronto per lasciar perdere 
perchè in quel caso non saprei mai 
cosa mi sto perdendo 
ma sono troppo fuori strada 
allora quando mi arrenderò a quello che ho desiderato? 

vorrei scagliarmi contro il cielo 
ma sono bloccato qui sulla terra 
quindi perché dovrei provare? 
So che sto per cadere giù 
Pensavo di poter volare, 
quindi perché sono annegato? 
Non saprò mai perché 
è crollato tutto giù, giù, giù... 
oh sto andando giù, giù, giù 
non riesco a trovare un'altra strada 
e non voglio sentire il suono della 
perdita di quel che non ho mai trovato 

vorrei scagliarmi contro il cielo 
ma sono bloccato qui sulla terra 
quindi perché dovrei provare? 
So che sto per cadere giù 
Pensavo di poter volare, 
quindi perché sono annegato? 
Non saprò mai perché 
è crollato tutto giù, giù, giù... 

Pensavo di volare, perché sto annegando?

I don't know where I'm at 
I'm standing at the back 
And I'm tired of waiting 
Waiting here in line, hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing. 

I shot for the sky 
I'm stuck on the ground 
So why do I try, I know I'm gonna to fall down 
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown? 
Never know why it's coming down, down, down. 

Not ready to let go 
Cause then I'd never know 
What I could be missing 
But I'm missing way too much 
So when do I give up what I've been wishing for. 

I shot for the sky 
I'm stuck on the ground 
So why do I try, I know I'm gonna to fall down 
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown? 
Never know why it's coming down, down, down. 
Oh I am going down, down, down 
Can't find another way around 
And I don't want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found. 

I shot for the sky 
I'm stuck on the ground 
So why do I try, I know I'm gonna to fall down 
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown? 
I never know why it's coming down, down, down. 

I shot for the sky 
I'm stuck on the ground 
So why do I try, I know I'm gonna to fall down 
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown? 
Oh it's coming down, down, down

Va avanti, respingi queste voci; 
che sono solo dentro la nostra testa; 
stenditi insieme a me, non dirmi bugie, tienimi stretta e basta, 
non posso farti innamorare di me, 
se non lo sei; 
non puoi far provare al tuo cuore, qualcosa che non vuole; 
ora siamo soli e non c'è nessun'altro più importante per me; 
riesci a guardare attraverso me?

I can't make you love me

I've been so many places in my life and time
And I've sung a lot of songs, I've made some bad rhymes
I've acted out my life in stages, ten thousand people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song to you

I know your image of me is where I hope to be
I treated you unkindly, darling, can't you see
There's no one more important to me, darling, darling, can't you just see through me?
We're alone now and I'm singing this song to you

Tell you what, darling
Turn down the light
Turn down the bed
Go on, turn down these voices
They're inside my head
Lay down with me
Go on, tell me no lies, no lies
Just hold me close
And don't patronize me
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me, darling
If you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Something it won't
Oh, here in the dark
In these final hours
I will lay down my heart
If you feel the power, but you won't
Oh, you don't

'Cause I can't make you love me
If you don't
If you don't find love, darling
Oh, on your own
'Cause you know that I found love, darling
On my own, on my own, on my own
I found love, darling, darling
Right, right, right in the knick of time

I found love, darling
I found love, darling
I found love, darling, darling, darling, darling, darling
Love in the knick of time



Lyrics: Bon Iver

So...

...I can go on without falling
I never get tired of
What I see and
What I
Live
Everyday

Everyday I look to the world

With children's eyes

As it was for the first time

As it was for the last time

I'd lost all my things

I'd lost all my time

Lost all my tears

But all of these things
I've never had

All of these
Will in

Every day

Last night

Last night I dreamed
About something that
I can't remember

Last night I dreamed
About everything

Last night I dreamed
About nothing

I don't want to remember

Last night I heard 

Voice

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio

I hate our favorite restaurant, favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
And never answer the phone

I can't forgive
In what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

I'm sick of always hearing
Happy love songs on the radio
This place is fucking cursed in its plague
And I can never escape

Sono stanca di sentire sempre
Tutte le canzoni tristi alla radio

Odio il nostro ristorante preferito, il nostro film preferito, il nostro show preferito
Dovremmo restare alzati tutta la notte
Dovremmo ridere e tirarci sù
E non rispondere mai al telefono

Non posso dimenticare
Cosa è andato storto
Perché tu hai detto che andava bene
Mi hai rovinato la vita

Sono stanca di sentire felici canzoni d'amore alla radio
Questo posto è maledetto nella sua peste
E io non posso mai scappare

Blow

When finally
I'll finish my tears
When I'll realize that were all lies
When I'll understand that when there's an exit, not on back
When I'll be able to walk with my legs again
I'm in a hole
I'm awake? I don't know
I see a glimmer of light and someone
Blows
And the flame goes out
Maybe this time I'm out
I can sleep without swim in a wet pillow
But he blows and I fall. I can't.
I get up and you push me down.
There's she
You say that it hasn't happened yet but I know it
You're already thinking about another girl
I just want it to be over quickly
I would just get rid of this ego and be myself

I see your shadow disappear



Quando finalmente
Avrò finito le lacrime
Quando avrò capito che erano tutte bugie
Quando capirò che c'è un uscita, non sul retro
Quando riuscirò a camminare con le mie gambe di nuovo
Sono in un tunnel
Sono sveglia?Non lo so
Vedo uno spiraglio di luce e qualcuno
Soffia
La fiamma si spegne
Forse questa volta sono fuori
Posso dormire senza nuotare in un cuscino umido
Ma lui soffia e crollo. Non ce la faccio
Mi rialzo e tu mi spingi giù
Poi c'è lei , dici che non è ancora successo ma io so
Che stai già pensando ad un'altra
Voglio solo che tutto finisca in fretta
Vorrei solo liberarmi da questo ego ed essere me stessa


Vedrò la tua ombra scomparire

Metric

Sono la lama
Tu sei il coltello
Io sono il vento
Tu sei l'aquilone
Avevano ragione quando dicevano
Che respiravamo sott'acqua
Fuori luogo per tutto il tempo

In un mondo che non era mio

Aspetterò
E 'questa la mia vita?
Sto respirando sott'acqua?

Luci di giorni
Riesco a vedere la fine
Ma non è ancora successo

Sto respirando sott'acqua?
E 'questa la mia vita?



Lyrics by: Metric

Love will tears us apart

Noi stiamo cambiando
Prendendo strade diverse
L'amore ci farà a pezzi di nuovo

Perché questa camera da letto è così fredda?
Ti giri lontano, sul tuo lato
E' il mio tempismo che è difettoso?
Il nostro rispetto è ormai asciutto
Eppure c'è ancora attrazione
Che abbiamo mantenuto attraverso le nostre vite

L'amore ci farà a pezzi, di nuovo

Gridi nel sonno
Tutti i miei sentimenti esposti
E ho una sapore in bocca
Come di disperazione 
Eppure, c'è qualcosa di così bello..

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And we're changing our ways
taking different roads
Love, love will tear us apart again

Why is this bedroom so cold?
You turned away on your side
Is my timing that flawed?
Our respect runs so dry
Yet there's still this appeal
that we've kept through our lives
Love, love will tear it apart again
Love, love will tear it apart again

You cry out in your sleep
All my feelings exposed
And there's a taste in my mouth
as desperation takes hold
Yet, that something's so good
Just can't function no more, when
love, love will tear us apart again
Love, love will tear us apart again

                                                  Song by: Josè Gonzales

Drawn

Now I don't know what to do
I thought you were all I ever need

Just lying toghether
Turning to me
Saying it will be fine
How can I leave you

Everything went well so far

Problem we can solve toghether

Drown toghether in the water
Loved me like nobody
I loved you like nobody's gonna love

We told each other lies
Drown next to me
Lying next to me
Dead next to me

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Ora non so cosa fare
Credevo tu fossi tutto ciò di cui avevo bisogno

Giacendo insieme
Girandoti verso me
Dicendomi che tutto andrà bene
Come posso lasciarti

Tutto è andato bene sin ora

Problemi che possiamo risolvere insieme

Anneghiamo insieme nell'acqua
Mi hai amato come nessuno
Ti ho amato come nessuno ti amerà

Ci siamo detti bugie
Annega accanto a me
Giaci accanto a me
Muori accanto a me

Just this

Pronuncia le parole che nn posso dire

Dille in un'altra occasione

Parole fragili come queste ti taglieranno la lingua

Son stato abbastanza bravo

Sono stato abbastanza cattivo

Quando ho voluto di più

Ma nessuno ci proverà per te

Nessuno farà quello che ho fatto io per te

E ogni sigaretta accesa lentamente

Con quelle mani tremolanti che a stento trovavano il coraggio

Stringimi come non hai mai fatto

Io ti stringerò come ho detto che avrei fatto

Morirò per te

Lyrics and song: All american reject

You'r bleedin'

Ricordo ancora il tuo sguardo vuoto
Hai scattato le foto ma ne hai lasciato i frammenti
Tutto ciò che abbiamo scritto è stato cancellato

Tu stai sanguinando

Riesco a sentire il tuo battito leggero
Puoi prendere la mia vita
Non riesco a dormire col tuo battito leggero

Ho nascosto il mio viso nel tuo cuscino
Per sentire il tuo profumo

Odio questa fottuta città
Voglio bruciare tutto

Lasciami solo

Turn off the lights 
There's just you and me
In our wonderful world
Turn off the lights 
I can finally see you 
I can see your face
It's true I go out and have unleashed, 
I just want to have fun 
But at the end of the day 
I come back home 
To you and 
You are there waiting for me.
Turn off the light..

Just, close your eyes and listen

Why wont you just leave me out to dry
I want to lie alone
Leave my home alone
I wanna cry

I want to lie alone

I want to cry alone

Hold my eyes Hold my eyes
And send your men up lighter than my door

I want to sigh for you
I want to cry for you
Hold my eyes Hold my eyes 

Hold my eyes

Song and lyrics by David O'Dowda

Run away from myself

Today I went for a run at the park, it was about 7 p.m., my favorite time,
when the sun
slowly
goes down
behind the meadows and
drop of bright light through the trees and
kissed by a spectacular gold light
I left the race track and I sunk on the lawn where
in front of me
the sun was perfectly in front of me over the trees ..
I'm lying in the grass ..
in my ears I heard this song..

 

Smile
               Happy
                                 Relax


I lay on that way for half an hour
Starting run
very fast
'till i've had enough

My heroine

The drugs begin to peak

A smile of joy arrives in me

But sedation changes to panic and nausea

And breath starts to shorten

And heartbeats pound softer

You will not try to save me!

You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

You taught my heart, a sense I never

 knew I had.

I can not forget, the times That I was

Lost and depressed from the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

You will not leave me alone!

Chisel my heart out of stone, I give in everytime.

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had

I can not forget, the times That I was

Lost and depressed from the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself.

 (myself)

I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else.

Your face arrives again, all hope I had Becomes surreal.

But under your covers more December torture than pleasure

And just past your lips there's more December anger than 

laughter

Not now or forever will I ever change you

I Know That to go on, I'll break you, my habit!

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.

I can not forget, the times when i was

Lost and depressed form the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

I will save myself!

-----o------o------o------o-------o-----o

Le droghe iniziano a fare effetto

Un sorriso di gioia arriva in me

Song for you

Now I can tell you that without you 
I can go on and start all over again.
I can tell you that I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to take 
a dip in the dark
I'm not afraid to dive in 
oblivion of the mystery
I can tell you that I will be 
happy now

I could tell you that I would like 
all the best for you
and that you will not
soffer
no more

But the truth is that
I'm afraid
I'm terrified by
the thought
to lose you, 

of not having you next to me
anymore

and all the
Bad things, all
the problems are covered by this
Truth..


I would like to go back  

Don't make the same mistakes again



Please come back to me





Maybe this sense of panic and nausea will disappear
But now...

Now

lost

Restart again

I would like to start all over again
Think it's everything 
Wrong 
But can't 
I can't

This is not el o vi

Maybe you do not deserve my tears.
Maybe I should learn to be strong
in front of you.
Maybe I don't have to let me go when
you're here.
Maybe I shouldn't cry
anymore,
but these are my feelings,
this is my pain that I can not hold and so, slowly, silently flow out in front of you,
you are the one who I thought was always close to me and ready
to be next to me.
How can you be so bad to the girl
you love?

You say that I cry so much and for all the times
if you had to stay close to me,
you couldn't live any more, but
this is not what boyfriends do?

Don't speak anymore,
Don't talk about feelings

Someone sing:

I wanna be free from this ball and chain and
Be free from this life of pain and

I wanna be free from you

Now I'm full of guilt and shame
I can not point a finger cause theres no one to blame
So I say I'll never do it again
But When the sun goes down, you are my only friend
I'm thinking I am starting to see
I have become everything I never wanted to be
I'm really getting sick of myself
Cause when i look into the mirror, I see somebody else

Sick and tired of being sick and tired


Everything goes to hell anyway

Laissez-faire mi amour, ce la vie

Leave it all

This is the first thing i remember
I'm drowning in the next room and
I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me

When I thought I get it all
Something inside told me that it was all wrong
I'm always to look out for something that could justify you.

This is the last time I  abandon you
And this is the last time I  forget you
I wish I could.

Look to the stars 
Let hope burn in my eyes

I'm too depressed to go on 
You'll be sorry when I'm gone 
I can't wait 'til I get home 
To pass the time in my room alone

So I'll leave it all behind

On the streets, where I walke alone 
With nowhere to go 
I've come to an end 

I don't believe in the secrets you keep 
But I do wanna know, how do you sleep at night? 
You can't make your heart feel something it won't 

There's nothing to say now
Feelings are already dead 
And I don't believe there's a way now 
All that is said has been said 

I don't believe that you can make all the pain go away

I would like to say that I don't care at all
But it's not and that makes me afraid of living my life.

It's too late to try
I believed your lies for too long a time
I'm barely here
It's too late 
To save me 

You're too late 

When you don't know what you're looking to find 
Just look up to the stars 
And believe who you are 

These words are my heart and soul 
And I'll hold on to this moment 
My heart bleed out to show you
Pieces of memories 
Fall to the ground 

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Questa è la prima cosa che mi ricordo
Sto affogando nella stanza accanto e
Temo il momento in cui tu finalmente verrai ad uccidermi

Quando ci ho pensato ho capito tutto
Qualcosa dentro di me mi ha detto che era tutto sbagliato
Sono sempre alla ricerca di qualcosa che potrebbe giustificarti.

Questa è l'ultima volta che ti abbandono
E questa è l'ultima volta che ti dimentico
Vorrei poterlo fare.

Guarda le stelle
Lascia che la speranza bruci nei miei occhi

Sono troppo depressa per andare avanti
Te ne pentirai quando me ne sarò andata
Non vedo l'ora di tornare a casa
Per passare il tempo nella mia stanza, da solo

Quindi mi lascerò tutto alle spalle

Per le strade, dove cammino da sola
Con nessun posto dove andare
Sono giunta alla fine

Io non credo nei segreti che mantieni
Ma vorrei sapere, come fai a dormire la notte?
Non puoi far provare al tuo cuore qualcosa che non vuole provare

Ora non c'è più nulla da dire
I sentimenti sono già morti
E non credo ci sia un modo ora
Quanto detto è stato detto

Non credo che tu possa sfuggire al dolore

Vorrei dire che non mi interessa affatto, 
Ma non è così, e questo mi fa aver paura di vivere la mia vita.

E' troppo tardi per tentare
Ho creduto alle tue bugie per troppo tempo
Sono a malapena qui
E' troppo tardi
Per salvarmi
E' troppo tardi

Quando non sai cosa stai cercando 
Basta guardare alle stelle
E credere in chi sei

Queste parole sono il mio cuore e la mia anima
E terrò duro fino a questo momento
Il mio cuore sanguina per poterti mostrare
Pezzi di ricordi
Che cadono a terra

Soon: Goodbye hair

Hair just flowing down down down

Lost in words

The changes scare me.
You accept me for who I am and that's awesome.
I've to face the world,challenges that are bigger than me.
I'm scared.
I can't keep up.
You aren't sensitive.
U don't ask me what I think.
Can you hear me?
The sound of my voice.
I'm freaking out.
Listening good music...
Waiting for something differentIt.
Doesn't arrive.

Zach

This is a quote from the official Facebook page of Zach Braff and then modified by the author of this blog.

This is my blog.
I am a human being with my own opinions. 
If you do not like those opinions it's perfectly fine. Feel free to disagree with civility. 
But being unkind and a HUGE troll is cause for instant banning.

Misunderstanding

You can't be so stubborn, not so proud of you.
Damn, are you for real?
I apologize, then I looked for you, I called you, but you don't mind.
Today I wanted to ask you if you wanted to come with me, and the only thing that I got is your indifference.
At this time we could be together.
Instead of being so stubborn,
if you care about me, do something..

Erasmus

Erasmus, Erasmus, Erasmus :) !!!!!!Oslooooooooooo

I would be in a better place where people don't want to judge.

"The new world"
 Terrence Malick

Late at night

I love "talking" with my "friends" until late at night, about things without sense and simultaneously with a thousand senses..

I'm no longer your muse

I was lying on you while you were singing to me a sweet

Happy b-day mummy!!!!!!!!!

Time, for you, never goes out

I luv u mum!

Making wish tonight..

Oggi

è stata una giornata piuttosto tranquilla, i raggi del sole filtrano nella cucina dando un senso di benessere..
Sono elettrizzata oggi, sia perché probabilmente ho i requisiti per iscrivermi al concorso per la borsa di studi della mia università, sia perché

I've just

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It's 4 a.m.

It's 4 a.m. ...make a wish, the darkness has fallen fast and quiet and I still can't sleep, my mind is crowded with thoughts that are hiding behind false hopes, or dreams wich obscure my mind .. and also my voice .. I can't hear, I can't hear me, can't feel my thoughts, my breath...No one can hear me now..

La sera

È sera, tutto è tranquillo, i vicini bagnano i giardini..




Il rumore dell'acqua che scorre, bagna, rinfresca, tiepide gocce scorrono..






La luce filtra tra i rami, foglie, fronde..





Un momento di pace, un momento in cui ogni cosa viene all'essere, rivela la sua essenza silenziosa e velata, celata dietro un nome impronunciabile.

Per finire questo bel momento, la sera pesce alla griglia, un buon bicchiere di vino bianco di Sicilia e una cena finalmente felice, noi tre raccolti attorno al tavolo, accompagnata da qualche risa.

Nel buio

Intrepida, nel silenzio, sta aspettando il suo ritorno, allorché si potrà destare.

First One

In conclusione di questa giornata inconcludente concludo nel dire che stare più di otto ore davanti allo schermo del computer è davvero sfiancante.